the catch -23

if I knew for sure that death was any easier than life I would take it. who's to say that god or the devil would be any more merciful. History proves that absolute power corrupts... absolutely. so we all drudge through this capitalist existence, buying in, thinking ourselves mavins or pioneers. pawns, if i could be so pedestrian.
tell me whats bigger and I'll do it. Tell me what's worth it and I'll strive for it.

My heart is recoiling in pain under years of rubbery scars. I can barely feel it beating these days. The eyes I used to take life in with are now swollen shut against the light and my body has shut down. Don't bother knocking.